Thoughts...

Definitely i wanted to create this space to be a natural & healing haven for people, and those I love..I feel i have a lot of intuitive naturalist gifts, voice and sense to share..and also i throw in some other fun things just according to my moods and to give the space energy...

It really meant a lot to me this year to create something special, true, and humanitarian in nature..I see myself perhaps having a foundation one day, connected to some good causes..and i felt this would be a good place to start, to share with the world a place of natural connection, healing, and relationship with natural and natural lifestyle. When i commenced, this platform, it was during a time I was also creating my organics company, that is still in completion stage..and really i put it together myself..it was exciting to me to find the vendors, distributors, and to really design the whole company..i have this designer's, architect's, visionary mind at times..and i like to move people with ideas, light, spaces, nature, beauty, art...When i was studying, it is also what is called "elevated" state of existing...as what relationship to classical music does to us for instance...or exposure to incredibly healing birdsong...

I am always a person that likes to move people naturally and kindly to a place of nurturing, kindness, connection to nature and senses...to me this matters a lot to my soul + being to see others healthy, blooming, feeling wonderful and connected to their true selves...i think also important to nurture your own state of being, and your soul..i think every day we can make corrections, and be a little more kinder, thoughtful, loving, but also remaining true, confident, and believing in ourselves also..it is always a kind of balancing act, isn't it...

I think as i mentioned in earlier blogs, every person and especially lady moves to her own rhythm, so having comparison games is not really so good...every person is flawed, and has bit of selfishness and bratty traits to them....we were all born as bratty cute babies :) and some bit of this is very healthy to maintain...it's staying a little wild really...:)

But i think if you can do a few truly wonderful selfless things in life, like creating a naturalist platform, volunteering in India and Thailand, as I have..and nurturing the ones we love, then i think it balances it...nobody is completely saintly really...but we can be sure that with enough wonderful acts of light, humanitarianism, that the core of our soul remain pretty pure...

I have found that those people that pick apart other people too much on choice of words, moods , are the ones not truly taking an honest look at themselves..the more we are honest & accepting of ourselves, the more we can actually see others clearly..we all have various moods, fussiness, and love of ourselves..nobody is 100% selfless :)

Thoughts on relationships...i think i have become much more thoughtful & a giver over the years..especially this year in relationships..being in your thirties does inevitably humble you...as you don't even know how long life will even last really..but i also feel when i have been completely selfless, i have been walked all over...for instance, completely disheartening that i created an entire wellness platform, for healing, and natural life, and someone i *was* in love with obsessed over a girl that has not done anything selfless in her life, and runs a synthetic brand killing people with cancers in actuality..

I feel now i am getting my spirit back,, thay you either know i am wonderful and accept me organically, and see my heart and soul, or otherwise do not expect me to keep doing back handsprings to prove myself..i do need to be wonderfully loved & cherished., especially for those i fight for, love, adore...i have always been a very fiercely loyal and devoted person to those i love, in friendship and in love..i am not affected by gossip, by some bad traits etc..i just love organically, and forever...and i accept the same for me really..loyalty is truly very important..This place is meant to be a haven and also really pieces of me and my soul..but it's not like in person i am bla bla bla...i don't even talk that much which is funny..because by the looks of some of my blogs you would think i do..to me blogging is more a natural emotional and mental, creative flow, that i like to happen..so then i am more at peace , quite and connected to myself in real life, and i also feel i have done something positive to better the world :)