Anna Karenina with my Scarlette Starlette..:)

When recently my heart & emotions bloomed for Vivien Leigh, I wondered why...it's funny when I used to watch Gone With The Wind..I thought much of what other people did...omg how obnoxious spoiled and dramatic this girl is, but so strikingly captivating, effervescent, lovely and delightful also :)
But then recently my heart truly bloomed for her & i felt a pulling emotionally for her..and then I became curious and wondered why...as honestly i feel a deep emotional connection very rarely, I tend to be a unique bird with a very much own personal synthesis of internal state & life experience...so such a connection is rare for me..

But I just sense there is much we do not know of her., really of her pain or even true perspective of life....she also came from a rather torn childhood, and she was without parents a great deal of..but she was very educated & creative..,..i think also she loved to lose herself to fantasy & daydream, and I have also been doing this since a little girl...She was also fluent in Italian & French..exactly how I have always wanted to be...still my goals :)

We do not always listen to direction or trust others naturally, and we can be incredibly willful, fearless, and just non conforming entirely...but its her sweet precociousness that attracts me most..when i see clips of other actresses from her time...they just never are quite like her..honestly either boring, aggressive in mannerisms/looks, or both..i always had very good manners like her...and people all my life have tried to shake me out of them..saying i should just be like whatever..but it's not in my nature really..i'm delicate internally and in the ways i am with life...and i like me this way really....i discover myself in my femininity , not in the abandon of it....and she was much the same, and we have both this talent & love for what they called in her "soft comedy," just light , playful, teasing...not everyone always gets this...i was always disturbed by harshness growing up, and still kind of am...that is why all the films and shows i like have this soft smart teasing banter..this lights me up most :) . .....but i do just have this natural affection for her now, like i want to hold her close & dear, beyond any of her pain....it saddens me that she died fairly young......when there is this emotional relationship, so much else in the heart naturally blooms...